For the past 2 weeks I’ve been in 1 hell of a rut, no matter how hard I tried to concentrate on relaxing, or breathing or….anything really, I’ve had no result. This got frustrating because this was one of the first set of complete and consistent failures that I’ve had in a long time. I hadn’t given up, but I found myself getting annoyed at the half hour point and just rolling over for bed. Well, last night was a little different.
I laid in bed and could NOT quiet my mind, so I figured i’d just go to sleep. Couldn’t do that either, what a confidence booster, I couldn’t even do a normal simple task. So I put on my headphones, fired up my kindle and listened to my audio book, surely that would put me to sleep? No of course not, the book is just starting to get interesting, why would I think that would work? Now i’m severely annoyed, I roll over on my stomach (my best sleeping position) nothing. It was about 2 30 in the morning, maybe 3 and I had to be up at 5 30 to get ready for work….something had to give. I figured “to hell with it”, i’ll try one more time.
It couldn’t have been more than a minute, maybe less into my session when I heard a male voice call to me. “Ruuuuuuuudy” I know I hadn’t dreamt the voice because I was wide awake, and I could hear it very strongly as though as the voice were to the right of me. After hearing that the exit symptoms swung into full affect. They all slammed me at once, i even began to feel my legs stretch through my feet, it was a very interesting sensation.
I wasn’t able to get out of my body, as soon as i felt like i was about to go, a thought would always interrupt the session. It gave me a huge moral booster knowing that i am a lot closer than i thought! In one moment i felt as though i’d taken 10 giant steps back, the next i felt myself leaping forward, closer to my goal than I’ve ever been before. I think that a conscious projection will be done by the end of this month, i’m sure of it.